deep within

Ah well, i guess i could have (should have?) ignored the tag given by Dr Evil. Grrrrrrr…

Here goes -

1. What are your favourite hymns? *oh gosh, hymns seem ancient to me ya noe*
As the deer, How great Thou art

2. Writers that have greatly influenced your spiritual journey?
King David (i can’t seem to think of any contemporary writers *oops*)

3. Clean or shaven?
hmm..i assume that this q is directed to guys..so - it depends…both?

4. MacD or KFC?
MacDs!MacDs!MacDs!MacDs!MacDs!MacDs!MacDs! (but i like KFC’s zinger burger)

5. One famous person who shares the same birthday as you? (how am I supposed to know laa- can’t even remember friend’s bday -_-lll)
*after some researching- Lindsay Lohan (actress, 2 yrs younger than me) lol…

6. Greatest mystery of the universe?

Quote from Uliang’s blog: “Where does all those hair in my room come from!!??” (where else brother, where else? dots)

OK, mine: Why are there so many mysteries in the world????!!!

7. Attached?
yeah- i’m attached to my chair right now :)

Okies- tag whoever that wants to be tagged. See, I’m so nice :))

Got this test from someone’s blog :P These personality-who-am-i kinda quizzes and tests are soo addictive! gahhhhhhhhhh…. Anyway, enjoy ;)

You are Psalms.

Which book of the Bible are you?
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Lalalala…

For clearer pic, go to general album- Gfoto

If only there were happy thoughts,
my life would be carefree.
Sad and painful memories erased,
and the void filled with colourful ones.
We choose to remember it seems,
the haunting past that doesn’t go away;
Oh, the agony! Pulling me further, and further, and further…

Rise up and lift up your head!
Shake off the dust and cobwebs!
For at last, there is a glimpse of hope.
Can you see the light?
Look! there’s an escalator.
Ding! ” Welcome to the path of many paths.”
“5 steps forward and 2 steps back,
is better than 1 step forward and 2 steps back.”

Do not dwell in the past my friend. Look to the future. For therein lies so much more…

story here

Death
And I wonder, how it would feel like if the people close to me have died. If even the demise of a person I hardly know and have not seen before breaks my heart, what more…

Live life to the fullest they say, for you do not know what will be of you in the near or distant future. Fullest…what does it mean to you? what does it mean to the people who look at your life? Ohh, people might say, “She lived her life to its fullest because she did this this that that yadda yadda”. And I’m sure they are mostly good and they account for a lot of things. Do accomplishments and achievements account to a full life? How about doing good? Personality? Situations perhaps (and how you have had handled it)? Interests? Thoughts? ALL OF THESE THINGS?

It takes so much to really know a person. It takes too much effort. It takes a lifetime. How well do I know you in order to say, yeah, “I’ve known him/her for —–years. He/she was a good person. I remember the time when——He/she said—— .We did these things together. There were moments when——and she/he—–. ”
How well do you know me?

For a moment in time, I thought I knew you;
If I could have a little more time, I said,
I would get to know you more.
Too much, too long, too difficult…
And suddenly, all that was intended remains-
lost forever….

http://www.bellagreetings.com/hal/card.php?ID=1689

you slacker
So much for wanting to study! Gah, spent almost the whole day watching tv and sleeping :( And the worse thing is that I can’t enjoy myself if I have not done anything productive! Argh…

Anyway, yep, I should stop complaining and do something productive like blog..haha..*rolleyes*

The final destination and the journey ahead
I’ve always wondered, what is my destination? Where am I supposed to go? What should I do? How can I achieve this ‘impossible’ task? Did I do the right thing? Why am I not leading a fulfilled life? Always struggling to find my identity, I feel lost in this world that doesn’t stop for anything. There doesn’t seem to time to mature in whatever goals that I have set and everything that i have dreamt of ..and then suddenly, last week’s message in church really hit me on the head. Wake up Aurelia!!!! yoo hoo..anybody home? Yeah, i’ve thought about feeling insignificant and weak and small; and i have also resolved to give all that i am to God in exchange for His strength and will for my life. Still, empty promises are not enough to change a person.
‘Let me be what You have called me to be. Fill me up to overflowing till I can flourish in everything that I have put my whole being into. Empower me to do the things which pleases You. And help me to be a blessing to those around me. Give me patience to finish the task at hand and faithfulness too. To not give up easily but to strive on in the things which are of eternal value. Let my mind be focused and still; to have tha mind of Christ and not be swayed by the waves of life that come. Let not pride overcome me but a humble spirit to take over. You are my refuge and shelter, my pillar of strength and source of help. You fill me with living waters; waters that refresh me from within. My flesh is weak, and I get tired. God, give me the renewed strength to carry on. That I may tell the world of Your goodness and mercy. That You are the answer to all the questions, doubts and fears. That You are God… Please, can You be real to me?’

This cannot be happening…No! It can’t be!

Deny all you want NUS students, feign ignorance, party all day and night, forget about all your assignments and reports and CAs, go and shout at the top of your lungs ” You (NUS) can’t take my life away from me! you can’t!”, walk away defiantly…and then shut yourself in your room and study…

33 more days u ppl! It is now or never. Make it or break it.

No matter how much we HATE exams, we still have to take them while still in uni…So, sigh…I shall squeeze out every ounce of energy to build up what you can call a good-for-examinations-brain. A post to remind myself. 33 x 24 = 792 hours is not long.

God, save me!

Anyway, was browsing through
The Sights and Sounds of Hawaii
and it really made me wonder at His creation! One of the pics here:

“Swimming away from the camera at Midway Atoll, a nudibranch called Spanish dancer (Hexabrachus sanguineus)—for its bright red “skirt”—is a soft-bodied mollusk found in warm oceans round the world. Protected by the natural toxins it ingests as it feeds on sponges, it travels over the reef with elegant confidence.”

My friend sent this to me and I thought it was super duper silly! Close your eyes if you’re allergic to lame jokes :P Use your mouse to highlight below the questions for the answers! To get the whole ‘L’ effect, try very hard to guess the answers ;)

Super Silly Quiz

The maker doesn’t want it; the buyer doesn’t use it; and the user doesn’t even see it. What is it?
Answer: Coffin

There is one word in the English language that is always pronounced incorrectly. What is it?
Answer : incorrectly

What is it that goes up and goes down but does not move?
Answer : Temperature

Before Mount Everest was discovered, what was the highest mountain on Earth?
Answer: Mount Everest

What is one thing that all wise men, regardless of their religion or politics, agree is between heaven and earth?
Answer : The word “and.”

How could you rearrange the letters in the words “new door” to make one word? Note: There is only one correct answer.
Answer : “new door” = “one word”

Which is correct to say, “The yolk of the egg *are* white” or “The yolk of the egg *is* white”?
Answer: ..Neither, the yolk of the egg is yellow.

And some more…

1. When is stressed good to eat?
—> when it is spelled backwards!

2. Why was the Tomato blushing?
—>Because he saw the salad dressing.

3. How do you catch a squirrel?
—>Climb into a tree and act like a nut…

4.Why didn’t the skeleton cross the road?
—>Because he/she had no guts!

5.Why don’t cannibals eat comedians?
—>Because they taste funny.

6. What does mozart do now that he is dead?
—>He decomposes…..

7.Why did the bee cross his legs?
—>Because he couldn’t find the BP station

8.What did the apple say to the orange?
—>Nothing stupid, apples don’t talk.

9.What do you call a parrot wearing a raincoat?
—>Polly unsaturated

10. What’s the difference between a mosquito and a fly?
—>A mosquito can fly, but a fly can’t mosquito.

Well, ignore this if you don’t want to know the itsy bitsy details of what i have been up to basically from September till now…It’s just for me to remember what I have been doing and whether I’ve completely wasted my time on things which are unnecessary :P

September:

-Started playing the keyboards in church (COOS)…i remember being paranoid when it was time to once again sit in a worship practice session after soo long (6 years?…not including the time when practising for ibnot’s worship session la :P) Was asked to play but i was too apprehensive? … and once again, it brought me back to the time when ‘what’s his name?’ (remember the face tho’ :P) asked me to play for YC back in kl…and i was too scared to play as i’ve always thought that my playing was just not good enough..and hence i declined…Ironically, after a while, i decided to audition and then got into the worship team. It feels like i am in this time machine which just replays the things that I have gone through; but just in different scenarios. After all these years, i still feel that my skill has gone no where- it is just stagnant and collecting dust perhaps? I still can play but there isn’t this sense of ‘wow! i actually played that?!’ Contradictions upon contradictions, gah…when will i ever learn to venture out boldly? I’m afraid and yet I want to try. Just give me time for these wings to fly…Complacent i have been, lying in the box, waiting for a chance to break open…or wouldn’t it be better to just sit there in silence, waiting, waiting, waiting…Don’t get me wrong, I don’t strive to play well so that other people can sit there and admire at my wonderful skills. I’m just bored. Anyway, i’ve started playing already; 4 times so far.

- Bonding session with band mates. After the baptism service, we went to this playground in Tiong Bahru and it was super duper fun! Felt as though i relived my childhood :P Played around with the slides, flying fox…; had charades, chasing,mooncakes..ended with some drinks at the nearby hawker centre (aiyah, not mamak) Ohya, funniest thing is the chicken lantern which emits bubbles from its backside! *lol*

- My mid-semester break was spent studying at my room or the library from morning till night time with breaks for meals. Haha..ok, i’m exaggerating over here…breaks for email checks, baths, laundry..etc. Did, i imagine myself doing this for my supposed break? No way! But due to the 5 CAs that i was going to have at that time. It was inevitable. I like this word- inevitable :) Special thanks to mugging friends: Faith, Pui Yee, Maureen

- Was supposed to meet my cousin Han Pin who came down from KL..he brought down mooncakes from my aunt but due to the lack of time on both sides- i was super tired after my first 2 CAs and he was too busy shopping…sigh, HP, HP…u enjoyed Singapore a lot eh?

- Got news from a music company, and was about to teach a 57 year old lady basic piano but she backed out at the very last minute. Ouch! I guess, i couldn’t have handled it properly as well, due to the amount of things i had to do then! I’m more free now tho, hmm…

- Worship seminar at Faith Methodist Church (FMC) aka Uliang’s church! Sonic Edge was leading worship and it was absolutely fabulous. The session was from 9 am till 1pm, covering materials supposedly for 3 days! So, u can imagine i’m sure, how rushed the whole thing was :P Lots of insights tho’ . I felt blessed to have gone when i first thought of not going. Received a goodie bag too! Tht reminds me, i haven’t really looked at the stuff ‘cept for one book!

- Hearing some news from home which put me in this state of.. i don’t know..i rather not reveal here..but it’s nothing much really ….

October:

- Karaoke party for Poi Yan! Quite a number of people’s bdays at that time: her, Pastor Glenn Lim and Bey! haha…funny when Ps Glenn asked me on how i got to know his bday :P Birthday Alarm- the next best tool for discovering people’s birthdays. What’s the best tool? Ask God, He is all knowing when our memories, systems and files fail. He knows all. Ya, back to karaoke. My first time in a karaoke! Felt like a suakoo. But it was fun! More than I’ve expected! Was soft at the beginning but loud (ok, louder) at the end ! hahaha…Felt so liberated singing silly songs, love songs, chinese songs, malay songs..without thinking on what the others think of my singing..out of tune? out of tune lah! :D lalalalala.