deep within

you slacker
So much for wanting to study! Gah, spent almost the whole day watching tv and sleeping :( And the worse thing is that I can’t enjoy myself if I have not done anything productive! Argh…

Anyway, yep, I should stop complaining and do something productive like blog..haha..*rolleyes*

The final destination and the journey ahead
I’ve always wondered, what is my destination? Where am I supposed to go? What should I do? How can I achieve this ‘impossible’ task? Did I do the right thing? Why am I not leading a fulfilled life? Always struggling to find my identity, I feel lost in this world that doesn’t stop for anything. There doesn’t seem to time to mature in whatever goals that I have set and everything that i have dreamt of ..and then suddenly, last week’s message in church really hit me on the head. Wake up Aurelia!!!! yoo hoo..anybody home? Yeah, i’ve thought about feeling insignificant and weak and small; and i have also resolved to give all that i am to God in exchange for His strength and will for my life. Still, empty promises are not enough to change a person.
‘Let me be what You have called me to be. Fill me up to overflowing till I can flourish in everything that I have put my whole being into. Empower me to do the things which pleases You. And help me to be a blessing to those around me. Give me patience to finish the task at hand and faithfulness too. To not give up easily but to strive on in the things which are of eternal value. Let my mind be focused and still; to have tha mind of Christ and not be swayed by the waves of life that come. Let not pride overcome me but a humble spirit to take over. You are my refuge and shelter, my pillar of strength and source of help. You fill me with living waters; waters that refresh me from within. My flesh is weak, and I get tired. God, give me the renewed strength to carry on. That I may tell the world of Your goodness and mercy. That You are the answer to all the questions, doubts and fears. That You are God… Please, can You be real to me?’