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Dear Students

Universiti Sains Malaysia (USM), a member university of the ASEAN University Network (AUN), is opening its application to up to 2 undergraduates per academic year from each AUN member universities to spend a semester of study at USM.

USM, located in Penang, Malaysia, offers selected courses in English. Interested students could visit the following website for the list of courses offered in English for AY06/07:

http://healthycampus.usm.my/pages/kursus.asp. (yah..it’s all in Bahasa Malaysia!)

Students accepted for this program will only need to pay the usual NUS tuition fees. A guide on the additional expenses that a student would have to pay for a semester stay at USM is as follows:

Student pass: RM 60
Visa: RM 120
On-campus Accommodation: RM 4 per day

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The good:
1. the food the FOOD!
2. ze yummy foood
3. mumm mumm
4. *drool*
5. less stress
6. the beaches

The bad:
1. Living conditions in the hostels
2. Adjusting to and accepting the ways of my own people without being overly critical and unthankful (is this a bad thing?)

Aiyahh..don’t think i’m going anyway..but entertaining that thought for a while makes me wonder…what would it be like if I didn’t come to Singapore?

Firstly, the friends i made here, i would never know if i didn’t come…this leads to another thing: friends in malaysia… if i did not leave KL, i’m sure there would be deeper relationships with the KLites than what i have now!

I would never know or understand

-how it feels like leaving home and being independent
-how much i can miss certain kinds of foods
-how self-contained i really am…which leads to how much i need friends to ‘dig’ it out from me
-how much effort i really need to take to build relationships
-that failure is not an end road
-that you can only truly say ‘I fully depend on God’ after going through many trials
-that when you can say ‘God is good’ while everything around you is in a mess, you have known His heart
-that fear is not absent in the courageous
-how God can turn something bad into something beautiful
-that the things which seem important in this age are not important at all
-how people who rise up to the challenge are either fools or risk-takers
-that in everything you do…there is a consequence
-that God chooses whether to answer your prayers depending on whether it is in His will or not..NOT yours (like duh!…but i learnt that the hard way)
-how much I should seek and ask of Him (am still learning)

A few people still ask me…so where would you go after this? Well, I have seeked Him before when i was in secondary school…somehow i got an answer….but things now don’t seem to be the answer altho’ they might lead to it…(ok, i’m not going to tell now even if you ask me :P)…recently had another revelation and answer to a request…it’s scary and weird but i don’t know how things are going to work out…(maybe one day when it turns out to be what it is..then yah, all would be revealed)…

Haha..it would be good to backtrack to this blog entry down the road and see how things work out in the end..