deep within

Not talking about defecating here in case anyone is wondering! (refer to title)

Well, today was the mark of my 4th week at work. My sentiments?

- Didn’t know what to expect when i first started, was worried about a ton of things but everyone else around me seemed to act as if i was crazy to be so worried
- Well, i realized that there is no use worrying :)
- There are people around to show me the ropes, to guide and tell me what went wrong
- I need to ask more questions! Be more observant :P ..more proactive since there is no one to really check on what i know and what i don’t know
- There is always someone to have lunch with :) People are generally friendly and although there may be cliques already formed..i guess its like this everywhere else
- To have the passion in doing what i do/what i’m going to do. It’s easy to just go through the motion but once i remind myself why i’m in this for, all the effort seems to be worthed it.
- KPIs may be superficial and sometimes, we just have to have more faith to stay sane.
- Let loose. I realized that i can be quite reserved. Sigh, still need more time to adjust to the environment and ppl around
- Need to be more disciplined. Havent been journaling regularly in my personal diary, spending less time with Daddy, with people whom i need to care about
- Am i really that busy? haha..in fact not yet..but still, why do i have less time to do the above? tsk tsk…TIME MANAGEMENT!!!
- i am seriously surprised if u’re still reading till this point
- Thoroughness and seeing the objectives met are really important traits
-Clear-headedness
- Graciousness
- The top value here is ‘Care and Concern’, but do we practice it? Yes! at least we try to… No! we forget sometimes
- Need to overcome the fear of public speaking…it comes and goes and i think it started after i got my retainers (after braces)..that was a loooooong time ago though…oh well
- Induction programmes are *yawn*. I remembered the ppl i met though :), the free fruits (HPB ppl tend to be more health conscious), the Bridge of Hope programme was good, some just have this motherly quality in them that when you get to know them even for the first day you just feel at ease ( i want to have that too!), we didnt get to meet all the Directors!, saw the CEO for the first time, not as personal as i would like, should i join the union?…

TBC… too much to say for my first four weeks of working life! and i must say, it has generally been an eye opening experiance for me..exciting at times, *yawn* inducing at others…

How can it be different? How can this not just be any other job?

Have you ever tried to talk to someone who is not listening to you?

‘God, speak to me.’

and there was i, busy with other things. Not even giving an ear. There but not there.

‘Why do i feel like i can’t communicate with some people?’

‘Do you feel like they are not interested in what you have to say? That they have too much on their minds? Too much that you can’t have a proper conversation with them?’

and there, what G said caught me. I have not been listening. There’s always too much on my mind.

‘I want you to be like Mary, like Samuel…’

Only one thing is needed. Speak Lord, for your servant is listening :)

Many of the messages that we hear and see through entertainment may actually be propoganda that have been subliminally incorporated to our thinking.

Maybe we just absorb better when we are relaxed?

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Although work has been quite relaxing, I simply did not want to spend even more time on the comp when I get home since I face it almost the whole day at work :P

Will update during the weekends i guess :) And probably not very wise to blahh everything here on the blog due to reasons i’m sure you know of…The best is still a conversation with someone face to face or at least through the phone…So, would like to spend time with so many people but i guess we all have to make do with what we’ve got! God, grant me the strength! “Wait upon Me..we have not been talking for some time?”